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6. helianthus
there are dead sunflowers in the corner of your room, shriveled and dry where you left them days ago. nobody gave them to you. you took them. there was a vase in biology lab where you were studying angiosperms and you tore their florets away and dissected them with scalpels and squinted into microscopes to see their stamens and carpels and ovaries and when they were done you kept two and brought them home with you in the cold gray rain.
7. nineteen
pretty college girl, they like it when you wear red lipstick and black neckties and talk about carbonyls and organic chemistry. you wonder what they would think of your Halloween night, when your friends stole two pumpkins and a shopping cart from the supermarket and rode it all the way back to campus past midnight and you didn’t have a bottle opener so you learned to pop beer caps off with a screwdriver and a stiletto heel.
8. ocean beach
and there isn’t a gentle bone in your body that hasn’t thunder-cracked under the weight of oceans. it is a long weekend and the waves shine golden bright but you swim too deep and find a riptide to carry you away. all at once the shore is gone and you fight and you fight until you choke on salt and starlight and for the first time you think, my god, i don’t want to die. the Pacific does not care.
(fear is when the waves hold you down and you can’t feel the bottom anymore and there is nothing beneath your feet but silent empty sea.)
there are dead sunflowers in the corner of your room, shriveled and dry where you left them days ago. nobody gave them to you. you took them. there was a vase in biology lab where you were studying angiosperms and you tore their florets away and dissected them with scalpels and squinted into microscopes to see their stamens and carpels and ovaries and when they were done you kept two and brought them home with you in the cold gray rain.
7. nineteen
pretty college girl, they like it when you wear red lipstick and black neckties and talk about carbonyls and organic chemistry. you wonder what they would think of your Halloween night, when your friends stole two pumpkins and a shopping cart from the supermarket and rode it all the way back to campus past midnight and you didn’t have a bottle opener so you learned to pop beer caps off with a screwdriver and a stiletto heel.
8. ocean beach
and there isn’t a gentle bone in your body that hasn’t thunder-cracked under the weight of oceans. it is a long weekend and the waves shine golden bright but you swim too deep and find a riptide to carry you away. all at once the shore is gone and you fight and you fight until you choke on salt and starlight and for the first time you think, my god, i don’t want to die. the Pacific does not care.
(fear is when the waves hold you down and you can’t feel the bottom anymore and there is nothing beneath your feet but silent empty sea.)
Literature
an extinction of self
you may be a god but -
a mind
s c a t t e r i n g
every which way,
an amygdala that atrophies,
i am the
bone-collector
of no ablution;
in consuming, i
become corrosion.
- i am divinity.
Literature
A fair fever.
there is a mermaid inside of me
with a handful of paint and a canvas heart
standing at the edge of the sea
where the dandelions grow;
if i stutter, i'm sorry --
anything tangible can be destroyed, and
i don't want to lose my muchness to
sunlight through an open window.
(a private jargon)
"walk on your own, into the sun,
as your spine arcs back like lightning,
a strong and broken man,
king of the horse-flies, for
soon there will only be stolen tombstones,
december skies in belgrade
and a forest in california, somewhere."
Literature
you are home
how do I begin
to ensure there is no end
beckon forever
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Notes to myself. Sometimes I feel it's important to keep track of these passing moments in my life, because I don't ever want to forget them.
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Please keep on recording these unique moments in your amazing style 